i'm a girl who's been blessed with a beautiful family
i'm a girl who's been doubly blessed with beautiful friends
i'm inherently me, flaws and all
but to the people who have come into my life at one point or another
who have given so much of themselves
there is no one more precious to me
nicole : "victory of the people"
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
chocolate pocky sticks & night time shoots
Oh geez... how long has it been? nearly 2 & 1/2 years since i last met the crew of mediacorp's channel 5 shoots... (i'm so, like, "seen-it-all-done-it-all"~!!) arasoo (cameraguy) and seah (logistics) look happy and well, as usual, and whilst alluding to subtle innuendos, they tell me how much i've grown up and slimmed down... all this on the crappy, mosquito-ridden outdoor set and me doing a bit part for 'missing', just because i'm kind of broke this month.. sigh... but though i know i vowed never to agree to a mediacorp job again because of the disgusting pay and the worse welfare, i'm pretty glad i got to see the crew again. they are the ones who make sucky environmental conditions, demanding directors and temperamental co-actors bearable with their jovial expressions and their "never-say-you're-gawd-awful-no-matter-how-many-takes" attitudes. Lord knows i could never have gotten through @moulmein high without them........
So after having spent a good 3hrs sitting in the back of a cab pretending to make out with a random guy, i left some old friends and headed to the nearest 7eleven to calm the monster in my stomach. as i step into the blast of the aircon unit, what catches my eye?!! it's Glico POCKY!! and then the cravings hit... "gotta have it, must have it... chocolate pocky sticks..." it's like a mantra running through my head as i make a round through the store and soon, nothing else looks remotely appetising... bleah.. so of course, i buy the pocky (2 boxes ONLY cuz it's on offer, yeah right...) and there goes tmw's lunch money.... (ok, i'm exaggerating here, but if u've ever been tight, u'd know what i mean...!)
As u see, i'm kind of in a middling place at the moment, not happy, not upset but in a sort of limbo... i'm starting to dread the career kick-start that's set for May... but at the moment, the studying's not really going anywhere, not appealing at all and i've resorted to accepting low-paying jobs for an excuse to get away from the books... so here i am.. with my daunting 2-exam papers-wednesday looming, my medical soci notes open in front of me like a fan... words blowing ceaselessly through (note: not INTO) my brain... and one hand stuck in a pack of skinny chocolate sticks... pocky, anyone?
we are one-winged angels
learning to fly
with balance of moments
in bright blue sky
will our wings eventual
sprout out to flee
when minds are unabashed
spread wide and free
why hearts abound spin
and stars do burn
whether sand doth slip
to fathoms churn
which is heaven on earth
gives soul to birth
where lays upon the hearth
our loud jarring mirth