Thursday, March 23, 2006
give me a world of shit, but never a dull moment
it's been a while hasn't it, since i've had a real, proper entry...
so much has changed in the last few months and i suppose i owe it to my friends (the ones whom i hardly EVER see) to post intermittent updates.
it's brilliant how a single act can change the course of your life.
after a painful assertion of my right to liberty in one aspect of my life, i found the strength to break free from the chains that bound me in another. so now, jobless and partnerless, i'm finding new joy in the daily routine.
do not weep for you are not sad for me, but for yourself.
isn't life just a series of changes, alternately large and small, all interlinked and inevitably connected? "what if" and "if only" are the worst phrases you could possibly utter as you blunder along. what good would wishing and wondering do in this world where we get only one lifetime to make all the "best" decisions for ourselves?
i've pointed myself in this direction, and i will follow my finger.
it's infintely difficult not to look back and try to draw the veil, but with each step forward, i maintain this position and hold onto it with the strength of my conviction. as with everything, the journey is easier as i move forward; towards a new career, a new home and a new belief in me.
p.s: my apologies for these obscure pseudo-poetic entries; with major change, comes major emotional trauma. do we not grow but through fire? painful, but such a necessity.
niq flicked her tail at 1:53 AM
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